You Don’t Have to Want the Same Thing

You don’t have to want what others want.

That’s okay and it’s allowed.

I’ve spent so much of my life feeling like most things aren’t for me. Watching people do what people do and not understanding what they’re doing and why they want to do it so badly. Especially when they explain it with something along the lines of, “because this is how it’s done, it’s what people do.” 🤔

I spent even more precious time trying to fit myself inside the kind of life that made sense on paper. Because I believed the lie that I was just overthinking it. That if I just gave that ‘normal, typical, it’s what people do’ way of being a try, I would see that it makes sense. I would find out I want it too.

But I don’t.

I gave it a good try, I really did.

I kicked ass at the american dream, and I did it young… at 21 I had my bachelors degree, a really great job and the shiny little car, had been with my ‘high school sweetheart’ for almost seven years, and had a brand new, big ass townhouse in the suburbs. I proceeded to then spend a decade untangling myself from my ‘perfect little life’ because it was never meant for me. I was never made for the things I worked so hard to have.

You don’t have to want what others want.

That’s okay and it’s allowed.

You also don’t have to be able to defend why. You don’t have to explain yourself so that others can feel more confident in their own blind choices. You don’t have to make sense to anyone outside yourself. No one. Not even your family or your friends.

I’m still trying to figure out how I fit alongside others when it comes to living this life, creating fulfilling relationships, and doing my work in the world. I still don’t understand what most of them are doing, but that’s okay. I don’t have to, just like they don’t need to understand what I’m doing and why.

You do you.
Just let me do me. 💕