I’m Not Lucky

Tell me I’m lucky to have the people I have in my corner and I’ll tell you about the years of isolation and feeling like I had no place in this world. I’ll tell you how challenging it was for me to learn to open my heart to strangers, to be vulnerable, to be seen, to be known. I’m not lucky, I didn’t just stumble upon this amazing tribe of people… I worked hard to become the kind of person that shows up and connects as deeply and fully as I do.

Tell me I’m lucky to have a business that lets me work from home doing the things I love and I’ll tell you about the many years I worked for anything and everyone. The years I hated what I did and who I had to do it for, barely making ends meet. The many jobs I held while struggling to start a business on the side. I’m not lucky, I didn’t just throw up a website and suddenly became known and successful… I paid my dues, building this business from absolutely nothing over several years, and I continue to work my ass off to grow it further.

Tell me I’m lucky I can travel and play and adventure like I do and I’ll tell you about all the years I hustled day and night, without hardly going outside. I’ll tell you how frustrating it was to find my footing and uncover my voice inside this work, and how challenging and heartbreaking it was to create this life I have today. I’m not lucky, I didn’t just wake up one day with the ability to live life the way I do… I’ve done the deep, hard, intentional work and healing to stand where I stand today, enduring many failures and obstacles along the way.

I’m not lucky and I’m certainly not special.

I did the work, and I continue to do it.

I’ve failed spectacularly at times.
I learned to ask for help when I need it.
I picked myself back up after every fall.
I fought like hell to figure out who I am and what I want.
And I fought even harder to make it a reality.

I did the work.
Day in and day out.
And I continue to do it.

You want something in your life?
Do the work.

And I mean really, truly do it. The work isn’t a one and done deal… it’s ongoing. Moment to moment. Day to day. Week to week. There are no shortcuts, no easy ways around. There’s just the choosing and the doing, over and over again.

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