This last year taught me patience.
It taught me how to truly slow down, be still, and move intentionally. How to make decisions from a place of deep truth, rather than whim.
Inside the anxiety that stemmed from my trauma I was forced to learn an entirely new way of operating in my life, work, and relationships. Any time I moved forward with something that wasn’t 100% aligned, anxiety would snap me back to the start until I really felt things through. Until I really knew what the right next step was for me.
There was, and continues to be, no way around this. I can no longer “push through” unless my heart, mind, body, and soul are 100% on board… with all things big and small and everything in between.
This has been one of the most frustrating experiences of my life.
And it’s also something I’m beyond grateful for.
It was almost a year ago when I learned to say “enough is enough” and started choosing a new life, a new path, and a new way of being. When I started committing wholeheartedly to the person I want to become and the work I feel called to do. When I stopped participating in the kinds of relationships and experiences that weren’t aligned for me.
Learning patience has been everything, because being intentional in all that I do is so very necessary for what comes next.
Which means a lot of pausing.
Taking steps back.
Sitting in stillness and staring at ceilings.
Feeling things all the way through.
And not moving until I know that I know.
(Maybe not everything, but at least the next step.)
My life and work and relationships will be infinitely better in the days, weeks, months, and years to come because of this.
Everything right happens in its right time.
Be willing to wait for that deep knowing.
And take it one intentional step at a time.
You’re moving forward, even though it doesn’t look or feel like it.