“He doesn’t get to be a part of my story anymore,” I said, “and he doesn’t get to take up space in my nervous system.”
This is healing and true freedom.
It’s what’s on the other side of the deepest, most painful work you can do. Lightness, ease, peace, and freedom. The ability to move forward and step into what’s next without any attachment to the past. Without being anchored by what was, what happened, what’s hard, and what hurts. Without the ones who hurt you still coloring your every experience because the trauma is embedded in your being.
Talking and intellectualizing our experiences has its place. But processing out what lives in our bones and got stored in our cells is most important. It’s the only way to heal and be free.
I feel safe in the world again. Not because I talked about all the awfulness I walked through. Not because I intellectually understand my trauma, what happened and why, or how it’s not my fault. I feel safe in the world because I dug in and excavated everything those experiences embedded in my system. Neurologically and physiologically. On a cellular level.
He doesn’t get to be a part of my story anymore, and he doesn’t get to take up space in my nervous system.
The one who kept me perpetually confused and overwhelmed. The one who left me a shell of myself, sick and exhausted and terrified of love. The one who gave me a reason to fear touch and closeness. Who violated my no, my boundaries, and my body repeatedly. He doesn’t get to matter anymore. I don’t carry him and the pain of us with me in my body anymore.
This is healing and true freedom. And it’s available to all of us, as long as we’re willing to do the work. To stay the course even when it hurts, especially when it’s hard.
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