I Took What I Didn’t Want off the Table

July 30, 2022

Nine months ago, I started looking at rental options in New Mexico.

As I scrolled through available apartments and houses, my entire body recoiled at the thought of renting an overpriced box anywhere in or around the city.

I simply couldn’t do it.

I’ve never been so proud of myself for listening to my intuition. I didn’t know what I was going to do, but I knew I would have to figure something else out because I wouldn’t be signing another lease. It wasn’t an option for me anymore.

And then, one night, the idea of living in an RV dropped in. My whole body lit up in the loudest “hell yes” I’ve ever heard, and I immediately started researching options. I asked if I could live on family property, researched parks and living off BLM land, and got a sense of what it would look like if I had to travel around. I watched endless videos and read through all the groups and forums. I followed anyone I could find who made it work with cats and online businesses.

I decided and leaned in.

I organized myself around it.

I asked for and accepted all the help I could get.

I moved through my fears and some of my deepest, oldest wounds and subconscious blocks.

I stopped caring what people thought.

I kept moving when campers or plans fell through.

I stayed open, willing, and intentional.

I made it happen, and I’m unbelievably happy to have my new home on wheels.

There’s so much more to do. So much more help and support to ask for and say yes to. So much to learn and figure out. It’s the first big step toward my off-grid dream, and I’m not moving in just yet. But it’s here. It’s mine. And I’m so glad I listened when my body said NO. I’m so glad I took what I didn’t want off the table and only said yes to what moved me toward my desires.

We can have what we want.

It doesn’t fall from the sky, though.

It takes consistent, intentional action and energetic alignment—staying in motion and believing in the possibility against all odds. Becoming the person who has what we want when it feels like it’s a million miles away.

Trust yourself to say no when it’s a no and to lean into the unknown for as long as it takes for the right path to be revealed.

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